fear

faced my fears and lost.
never meant to hurt.
nothing resolved.
staring into my eyes
every fear is real.
this is why i run.

do you

do you ignore it because you don't know?
or because you do.

scars

you would think after all this time
it would be better.
and it is.
but sometimes it is just the same.
and some things never really
get better.
older.
we learn to live
with the pain
that never goes away.

sap

i'm getting ready for a change.
sappy music on tv,
a tender moment,
and my thoughts are lost.
i didn't see, i could only hear.
that was enough.
getting ready for a change,
and somehow still thinking of the last one.
so long ago
and yet so close
that all my life is still in it.
i want to tell you all i feel,
all i still feel.
but i know your response,
and i cannot take it.
i will not bend to show my weakness
when i know it will avail nothing.