pretend

she's ignoring me again.
having fun, pretending the pain isn't there. she can cope this way. she can live without the desperate needs that sometimes overwhelm her. and its okay for now. i won't take this from her. someday she may have to face this and conquer it. conquer me. maybe. unless i win. or this battle continues forever, leaning some days in my favor, some in hers. for now, its hers, but decietfully so. she's hiding from me, but not beating me. i am still strong here, behind the scenes, waiting for her to lose that strength. it stands on a perilous edge.