angry

ha! now she is mad. it is usually i who am allowed to be angry, but not today. i think my lack of recent writings has encouraged her to think more of herself. she seems to want to take over sometimes. i can't let her do that. if she loses me, she won't know how to deal with life. i may be her greatest adversary, but i am also the most loyal. i can't fade. for me to fade would bring disaster. if life were to become too easy, she would surely destroy herself in confusion. so today, i will speak for her. she is hurt. the anger of those who are nominally truest is something she must live with again. and even if the anger fades, there is a small scar from the hurt she had. when much is expected, she always tries to accomodate. but bitter and sarcastic remarks cause her to coil up, resist accomodation. when everyone wants something, and what she wants is drowned in attacks, she will begin to disappear. draw into herself. stay in bed. the world is a vampire, sucking her life and she will not fight back for she doesn't see any weapons.